FAILURE

Never knew it would be this hard
To forget you,
To throw you out of my life.

I felt I would trash you
Just like that paper I threw off:
But, even after time rushed forth
You are still agile in my thoughts.

Even after years,
Its you I remember
When I am suffering hard.

I felt I would burn your thoughts,
Swelter them in the heat of my heart.
Our Chemistry teacher had once said,
"Burning is irreversible".

Then why is it that you are regaining form,
In my heart and my soul
With the passage of every single moment.

Life has become unbearable
And your memories- a terrible black hole!
Where once I peep into,
Its impossible to merely get out.

The NASA still needs to work hard
To find one more of this sort.
To find one more that is capable enough
Of relentlessly pulling all gaiety into itself
And turning the world so fearfully dark.

I do not understand
What still makes me cry so late?
I am unable to make out,
Why, still on the 30th
I sit in my room, with a cake before me
When you are nowhere in vicinity?

I truly regret
When I realize that I failed,
Failed for the first time,
To make my brain sense
...And my heart feel,
That I don't need you in my life.